Guess we just never stand a chance...

I know you're thinking I'm heartless
I know you're thinking I'm cold
I'm just protecting my innocence
I'm just protecting my soul

I'm never gonna let you close to me
Even though you mean the most to me
'Cause every time I open up, it hurts
So I'm never gonna get too close to you
Even when I mean the most to you
In case you go and leave me in the dirt again

Every time you hurt me, the less that I cry
And every time you leave me, the quicker these tears dry
And every time you walk out, the less I love you, yes it true 
Baby, we don't stand a chance, it's sad but it's true
I'm way too good at goodbyes
No way that you'll see me cry

原来我什么都不想要

曾经的我知道这样不好因为你的愛只能那麼少
我却不停的要..到你想逃

淚濕的枕頭曬乾就好 
眼淚在你的心裡只是無理取鬧
就算在你身後..也觉得没什么不好 

我不要你的呵護也不要你的承諾更不要你的永遠 
只要你真切的愛我一遍就好
但在我需要你是你却把沈默 當做對我的回答



















而我.... 已经什么都不想要。

Only time will tell..

Does it feel, feel like you never gon' find nothing better?

Does it feel, feel like you're missing, 'cause I loved you different?

Does it still matter? 

让我想起你的一首歌(03) - Goodbye love, you flew right by love

Remember the way you made me feel
Such young love but
Something in me knew that it was real
Frozen in my head

Pictures I’m living through for now
Trying to remember all the good times
Our life was cutting through so loud
Memories are playing in my dull mind
I hate this part paper hearts
And I’ll hold a piece of yours
Don’t think I would just forget about it
Hoping that you won’t forget about it

Everything is gray under these skies
Wet mascara
Hiding every cloud under a smile
When there’s cameras
And I just can’t reach out to tell you
That I always wonder what you’re up to

I live through pictures as if I was right there by your side
But you’ll be good without me and if I could just give it some time
I’ll be alright

Goodbye love you flew right by love

A MV that is long awaited...

Even after everything.. it all ends in a shame..

让我想起你的一首歌(02) - 我们的爱差异一直存在

听着这首歌时就会像起去年看着这夕阳和海滩的你我
那段画面很美也让我无法忘怀
但那些回忆如今却已不复存在而带给我的只剩感伤与遗憾
因为还记得你说过我们的差异与倔强也是能让这感情有他的独特与坚强 
不过这毁坏的沙雕现在要如何重来 有裂痕的爱怎么重盖 
我还无法释怀是一切 结束的太快 
但我也无心再猜你我的未来
也领悟海鸟跟鱼相爱 只是一场意

海平面远方开始阴霾 悲伤要怎么平静纯白
我的脸上 始终夹带 一抹浅浅的无奈

你用唇语说你要离开 (心不在)
那难过无声慢了下来
汹涌潮水 你听明白
不是浪而是泪海

转身离开 (你有话说不出来) 分手说不出来
海鸟跟鱼相爱 只是一场意
我们的爱 (给的爱) 差异一直存在 (回不来)
风中尘埃 (等待)竟累积成伤害

转身离开 (分手说不出来) 分手说不出来
蔚蓝的珊瑚海 错过瞬间苍白
当初彼此(妳我都) 不够成熟坦白 (不应该)
热情不在 (你的)笑容勉强不来
爱深埋珊瑚海

毁坏的沙雕如何重来 有裂痕的爱怎么重盖
只是一切 结束太快 妳说妳无法释怀

贝壳里隐藏什么期待 (等花儿开 )
我们也已经无心再猜
面向海风(面向海风)
咸咸的爱(咸咸的爱)
尝不出还有未来

让我想起你的一首歌(01) - 太多疑問..但知道答案又如何..

已有一个月没联络了

你的沉默与行动也算是对我的一种答复， 一种真实
我心想有可能这对我们都好

只是还需要习惯这样的我们， 每当想你时就用·一首歌把对你的思念与当时的情绪写下,  好让它陪我走过这段回忆

也暗地里希望有一天这些思念与回忆会像是个填满的补满能在多年后会有结果

你說的話　在我心中生了根
愛得很深　所以心會疼
記憶　在我的心中翻滾 
是不是每一個人　都像我一樣笨

只怕再問　對彼此都太殘忍 
我能感覺　另外一個人
我等　等笑容換成淚痕 
愛在崩潰的時候　比較真

太多疑問　 知道答案又如何 
原來容忍不需要天份　只要愛錯一個人

心痛比快樂更真實　 愛為何這樣的諷刺 
我忘了這是第幾次    一見你就無法堅持 
孤獨比擁抱更真實　 愛讓人失去了理智

會不會是我太自私　 拒絕更寂寞的日子 
放不開　也看不見未來

難道這種不完美　 才是愛情真實的樣子

痛苦的是领悟到无论付出多少终究叫我感叹事与愿违

可以不愛不委屈, 怎麼就是愛回憶.. 我还留戀什麼, 幻想什麼, 可能隱藏著奇蹟.. 我是否应该停止折磨我自己..

你瘋了 就甩開牽著的手 
你累了 又躺回溫熱的胸口 
你奢望 安穩和狂歡同時擁有 

我累了 就狠狠關上門鎖 
我瘋了 又點上等待的燭火 
我奢望 幸福終究會讓難過解脫 

鍊愛是危險的夢遊 
會掉出頂樓的窗口 
整個人飛著 整顆心墜落 
又著魔 又折磨 

鍊愛是可怕的美酒 
能麻醉累積的疼痛 
總是會記得 往日的什麼 
又變得 天真了 

爱本是泡沫,如果能够看破有什么难过..

全都是泡沫 只一刹的花火
你所有承诺 全部都太脆弱
而你的轮廓 怪我没有看破 才如此难过
相爱的把握 要如何再搜索
相拥著寂寞 难道就不寂寞
爱本是泡沫 怪我没有看破 才如此难过

我还抱着希望找回我们那失落的沙洲

隨時間的海浪漂流
我用力張開雙手

擁抱那麼多起起落落
想念的還是你望著我的眼波

又回到這個盡頭　我也想再往前走
只是越看見海闊天空
越遺憾沒有你分享我的感動

我不是一定要你回來
只是當又一個人看海
回頭才發現你不在
留下我迂迴的徘徊

我不是一定要你回來
只是當又把回憶翻開
除了你之外的空白
還有誰能來教我愛

I can't get you out of my brain..

"I just hope you're lying next to somebody
Who knows how to love you like me
There must be a good reason that you're gone
Every now and then I think you
Might want me to come show up at your door
But I'm just too afraid that I'll be wrong"

"We don't talk anymore..
Like we used to do...
We don't love anymore
What was all of it for?"

My heart skipped a beat, the moment you replied, even thou it was simply a "Thanks. :)" Makes me wonder will I ever get over you.. 

Reminisce

Your arms are my throne
Your heart is a palace
Put your hands all over me
Babe that's all I need..

There was a time your arms were my safe haven

Your kisses gives me life when all seems to be lost

=''(

我们都输了...

赢了一张嘴但是输了一颗心，就为了自己争一口气我们都选择放弃了彼此。

希望有一天你我重逢时我们还深爱着，已成张成为了能更爱更包容对方的自己....

凭什么要失望 藏眼泪到心脏
往事不会说谎别跟它为难
我们两人之间不需要这样
我想

修炼爱情的心酸 学会放好以前的渴望
我们那些信仰 要忘记多难
远距离的欣赏 近距离的迷惘
谁说太阳会找到月亮
别人有的爱 我们不可能模仿

修炼爱情的悲欢 我们这些努力不简单
快乐炼成泪水 是一种勇敢
几年前的幻想 几年后的原谅
为一张脸去养一身伤
别讲想念我 我会受不了这样

笑着说爱让人疯狂
哭着说爱让人紧张
忘不了那个人就投降 OH~~~

修炼爱情的悲欢 我们这些努力不简单
快乐炼成泪水 是一种勇敢 OH~~
几年前的幻想 几年后的原谅
为一张脸去养一身伤
别讲想念我 我会受不了这样

几年前的幻想 几年后的原谅
为一张脸去养一身伤
别讲想念我 我会受不了这样

希望这次是我最后一次为我们再掉泪...

A year without you

A year has passed since you left us. Its still something I'm not use to whilst writing this post in the same room looking at the same bed you once slept on.. This year other than not being able to celebrate Chinese New Year it was your absences that makes it really different. No more saying of Chinese new year greetings, no more ang pows handed from you and even gathering around the dinner table seems slightly odd but I guess we just have to slowly get use to it.

In the process of writing this post I tried to look for some pictures I took with you since young and I realize that we only did that on rare occasions and we barely have a few photos together but I manage to find this, which both you and grandpa came along during a Haw Par Villa day trip with the cousins and uncles and aunt. This picture is a fave of mine in the bunch cuz its most likely the only photo I took with both of you and it reminded me how you guys took care of me when I was younger. Anyway as the whole family gathers for this day I hope you'll be watching over us together with Grandpa and giving us your blessing knowing that we miss you guys deeply..



From your beloved grandson.

;playmymusic post 009

Haven shared music for sometime so juz decided to arranged a few songs that I have been spinning on my nano these days... Ohhh.. maybe becuz it was eons ever since I last did a ;playmymusic post so this playlist is kinda long, just fyi. =)

Girls' Generation - THE BOYS (Korean Ver)

Quote from Hold 住姐 , if you are a kpop fan and you have not heard their latest single, your out! Not Fashion~ Anyway they back with vengeance after a successful debut @ JAPAN to their korean roots. They have 12 millions hits on youtube so far since the vid was loaded on 18th Oct, they also recorded a English version of the song too.

The Saturdays - My Heart Takes Over


I just like the lyrics of the song. Simply put it.

Cause if there's a chance
We might've missed
And if there's a RAY of light in this
Baby you should know that this is where my heart takes over, over..over...

And if there's a small piece left of us
Somewhere in the matters we have last
Baby look at me cause this is where my heart takes over, over..over...

Kelly Rowland - Down For Whatever

Crafting her niche in dance music I think she is heading towards the right direction with this single. Totally dance floor material.

Shy'm - "Si tu savais" (If you knew)

Released in 2008 and peaked at no 2 on the French charts, I got introduced to this great R&B number by my hip hop dance instructor on one of my Wednesday class. The song juz strikes me on the right note since I first heard it.

**Translation**

Oh, your eyes falling on me and taking me away

On your sweet face, I can make out the words and the poems.
No need to speak everything is written in our eyes
And it makes me dream, but is it just because I'm talking about us?

Do you see me as I see you?
Do you feel me as I feel you?
Most of all, let's not ruin anything

Baby if you knew how much good you do me
When we can steal some minutes every day
I know how lucky we are to see so far
And go our way together; your happiness is mine

Kelly Clarkson - "What Doesn't Kill You"


This for all Kelly Clarkson fans, I seriously think this will be either the next or 3rd single from her latest album "Stronger".

Enrique Iglesias Feat. Jennifer Lopez - Mouth 2 Mouth


I just dig this collaboration~ Its all about the real attraction and connection that I believe comes out naturally when 2 are drawn together. Do you feel it?

Till next time.. Rey and Cory says goodnite! =)



Juz wanna ;playmymusic

Juz be true to who you are

Dear Blog,

I missed you and sorry that I haven been writing to you cuz this is one those times that I'll reflect on myself and my life. I shall start pening down my thoughts again moving forward. Promise.

Today I've learned an important lesson, its not something new but juz something that I think I've forgotten along the way in life.

And thats to stay true to myself and not letting others or things to bring me down juz because I doing it for other's sake. Let's start making things right for myself from now on.

I will care for others and give them my best by accepting who they are and to be reciprorcated in that same way is the best that I can ask for.

I dedicate this to myself (A song a day keeps a emo Rey away)

I stare at my reflection in the mirror:

"Why am I doing this to myself?"

Losing my mind on a tiny error,

I nearly left the real me on the shelf.

No, no, no, no, no...

Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars!

Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,

It's okay not to be okay.

Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.

Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,

Just be true to who you are!

.............................

Yes, no's, egos, fake shows, like WHOA!

Just go, and leave me alone!

Real talk, real life, good love, goodnight,

With a smile, that's my home!That's my home, no...

.............................

Juz wanna; be true to myself

I juz wanna hold you again

Only with each passing day it makes me realize even more that I'm not gonna get use to the fact that you have left us for good. Even though you always said that you have no more regrets and should reunite with grandpa. I know you did your best to put up a good but painful fight till the end. But it all happens too sudden while you were slowly recovering in ICU when we thought you gonna pull through.

During the first few days of your passing it was the toughest for me. I cried so much that I never thought I will. The pain was so immense that its beyond words to describe. However the worst was regretting not spending enough time with you during your last few months with us as I was buried by work and spend my time gallivanting with close friends instead.. This guilt ridden conscious will always haunt me.

Recalling the old times with you bringing me up just deepens the pain in me. Always playing that role when mum is busy with work. Especially those times where we cooked meals together, when you handed me my pocket money, the times we watched your Hongkong Dramas together, me woken up by your loud voice, times where we worked our butts off at our coffee stall in the hawker center or buying meals for you and those bickering sessions that we have. All these juz keep repeating itself like movie scenes in my mind.

Staying with me under the same roof for 27 year and seeing you everyday, the house without your voice or the empty room without you or even that empty sofa chair just seem so foreign to me. Your scent still lingers on the pillow you sleep on, your fave clothes, your medication and so many things reminds me of you. I really miss those times where I hold your hands every now and then, if I could wish for something I juz wanna hold them once again and tell you those things that I never did.

Nonetheless I'll be strong and your unconditional love for us will always reminds us how much you have put in and sacrifice for this family. The only relieve for us is that you no longer need to suffer the pain of dialysis that you have bared for the past 14-15 years and living to the age of 83 and with 5 loving children and 12 grandchildren that misses you deeply I'm sure you leave us without any regrets.

** If I seem distant, baby I am **
Words are like scissors, in your hands
And there's no script to follow, so I just close my eyes
That way it won't hurt so much, when we say goodbye
I feel just like an actress, up on the stage
I can't believe, what I'm hearing myself say
And a porch light is my spotlight, so I play along with this lie
That way it won't hurt so much, when we say goodbye

Did you ever love me? Does it even matter?
Did you even notice, the whole word shatter?
I just want to hold you, and tell you that I'm sorry
But I just keep it all inside
That way it won't hurt so much, when we say goodbye

My heart feels like a circus It's too much to take in
It's hard to lose a love But you were my best friend
So walk this high wire, alone tonight
That way it won't hurt so much, when we say goodbye
That way it won't hurt so much, when we say goodbye

That last look you had was so benevolent and peaceful hence I really hope and believe that right now you are at a place that you belong to and knowing you, you'll always be watching over us and be our guardian angel. Love you and will always miss you..

From your beloved grandson

F.R.E.E.D.O.M for now

Finally.. like my Facebook status said. I'm so O.V.E.R.U.E.X.A.M.S! period~ Lol! Anyway cant juz sit back n relax. alr started looking for job. had send out my 2nd resume to Resort World, hope they'll get back to me.. Sooon... *Prays* Well.. still abit torn over what corporate job I shld head into. my heart tells me to venture the hospitality sector (explain my TP Tourism Diploma) but my head tells me to go for sumthing else that gives better moolah.. like the telecos aint gonna be much of an issue for me but kinda worried I might stucked there forever. so still pondering.. Guess.. I shld juz let nature take its course..

Anyway Girlicious is back with their latest vid. I totally LOVE the song man. but the vid is really cheap lah.. after 1m25secs its juz went down so badly that they probably hit somewhere near the core of Earth. n Natalie gain sooo much weight... n wats with the those lights! giving me headspins... Well. u'll be the judge....

Girlicious - Manic



Girlicious - Like me



Still prefer the old Girlicious with Tiffanie in it.. This vid is juz so much sassy, so much better..

Anyway! moving on! very excited lately cuz my Motorola Backflip was launch last wkend at Singtel exclusively... so gonna get my hands on it 'VERY SOON' with 'someone's' help of cuz.. n you know who u r *big wide smile* Lol! The time of Andriod has arrived! (ALL free Apps man!) n Windows Mobile is so passe. well. let us see how long Iphone can hold its fortress. haa..

Heard Singtel having a Roadshow at Taka again.. gonna chkout my baby this wkend of cuz,
Baby here i come!



Juz wanna get Flippin!!

;playmymusic post 008

I'm back! Pardon me for the M.I.A, but the first half of the year has been a crazy ride for me. reservist, CNY, overloading of modules in school for my last semester, rushing countless assignments, work, personal commitments and the list goes on on.. blah blah blah..

Well. juz making a quick update n sharing some awesome tracks b4 I dive back into my books again. Took my first paper yesterday. 1 down 3 more to go. juz cant wait for the whole darn thing to end and start on my first corporate job which I've already started looking for.

Anyway.. today we have some J-pop tracks as well, nevertheless hope u guys will like what I have posted.

1) Yuya Matsushita - Trust me

The no 1 top spinner in my playlist now. this 20 y.o guy do have some serious chops going on. Feel that he will go far. n he does resembles a more gd looking Seven, (the now no where to be seen Korean Singer/Actor) at certain angles. Well. juz play the vid n I'm sure u guys will be charm by him.. His moves r so slick~~ ohh! n totally digging his pair of white sneakers man..

Click here for Live performance of Trust Me

2) MAX - Cat's Eye

My ALL TIME FAVE Jpop girlband is back with their latest release to celebrate their 15 anniversary. lotsa of fans had labeled this as a nod to their roots, cuz its a eurobeat rendition of a cover that debuted in 1983, giving it a very 80s disco and secret agent vibe. Loving every bit of the video.

3) BoA Feat Daichi Miura - Possibility

Featured in her latest Japanese album; Identity, that was release in Feb, this R&B ballad is really hitting all the right notes for me. BoA shld really heads towards this direction for her upcoming works..

4) Alicia Keys - Un-Thinkable (I'm Ready)

This shld be Ms Keys's nxt single from The Freedom of Element album, kinda reminds me of her early works, so surreal yet so soulful.. n she's getting HOTTER by the day.. Love her to bits.. n those who haven, pls check out The Freedom of Element. Its really one of my fave albums by her so far. 2 thumbs up!

5) Timbaland Feat Bran'Nu - Middle in Tha Middle

My personal FAVE from Timbaland's Shock Value II album, one of my top picks whenever I hit the gym..

6) Janelle Monae Feat Big Boi - Tightrope

Bum into this track by chance, and I muz say its a pretty quirky video and That Janelle can really GLIDE, some serious footwork there.

7) Linda Kiraly - Can't Let Go

A song that I posted before in 2008 on my LJ, been digging some of my old tracks lately and this is really one hella of a gd song that's worth sharing AGAIN. From what I found this is the Hungarian-American singer's first English debut single which she collaborated with Darkchild, no wonder I love this track so much.. n the lyrics... is must play song during breakups. Lol!

8) Christina Milian - One Kiss

Lastly, another old song that I dug out, I think its one of those songs that Ms Milian did but didnt manage to do any impact on the charts but I juz find this is a really great dance song that is not really justified. Well, personal opinions..

So I guess thats it for now. will be back n updating more frequently in May when I done with my darn exam. Till the nxt time then.

Juz wanna ;playmymusic

~Be Fearless~

If that's the way you love
You've got to learn so much
If that's the way you say goodbye

And this is how it ends
And I'm alright within
Never going to see me cry
Cause I've cried

Chorus:
So go on, go on and break my heart
I'll be okay
There's nothing you can do to me
That's ever going to burn me

So go on, go on and leave my love
Out on the street
I'm fearless
Better believe I'm fearless, fearless

So oh woh oh woh oh...

If this is how it hurts
It couldn't get much worse
If this is how it feels to fall

Then that's the way it is
We live with what we miss
We learn to build another wall
Till it falls

Chorus:
So go on go on and break my heart
I'll be okay
There's nothing you can do to me
That's ever going to burn me

So go on, go on and leave my love
Out on the street
I'm fearless
Better believe I'm fearless, fearless

So oh woh oh woh...

If it's between love and losing
To never have known the feeling
And I'm still sad we've loved

And if I end up lonely
At least I will be there knowing
I believe in love

Go on go on break my heart
I'll be okay
I'm fearless
Better believe I'm fearless fearless

So go on go on and break my heart
I'll be okay
There's nothing you can do to me
That's ever going to bury me

So go on, go on and leave my love
Out on the street
I'm fearless
Better believe I'm fearless, fearless

So oh woh oh woh...

So go on and leave my love
Go on and leave my love
Go on and leave my love
Better believe I'm fearless, fearless
Fearless...




This gonna be the last time that u'll mean this much to me and frm tomorrow onwards I promise I'll make things better for myself. And Feel much better.. I know I'm Fearless.. wad about u?